Monday, July 21, 2008

i hav been like pondering over it lar... is like was it realli my fault dat she is not in our grp of frwens.. is like was i realli the gatekepper who did dat?? but is like do i realli hav the power to do dat ?? u r in , u r out?? no wad.. they dun listen to me.. every1 hav their own stands wad.. even if i realli did say anythg.. if they didnt share the same tinking as me dis won't happen wad... and we did not force u out wad like take a broom and like say u dun got out i chase u out .. i felt bad too but whenever i feel liddat u do some stuff to make me change my stand.. whenever i wanna like u noe try to make thgs better .. u will make me change my mind .. maybe like wad jia yi says one meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it.. maybe it is jus my destiny??.. the more i try to avoid u the more u will appear in my life.. now u r sitting beside me i dun wan thgs to be like .. when we meet we cannot even say hi.. or like u noe i hope dat we r still frwens ..when did it started , how did it happen? i cant remember and i dun wan to.. wad happens tmr i dunno, maybe the next 1 out of the grp of frwens may be me but if dat realli happens i wont blame any1 except for myself. becoz i noe dat there is a reason for everythg.. y the abrupt change? becoz we had alr reached the limit ..but u still dun realise.. if i was realli the 1 i apologise ..but still even if i play a part in it i tink the main role is still yrself. a right decision is 1 that i nvr regret making and i nvr regretted making dat decision.. blame me if u 1 .. say im selfish if u 1 .. but there is a limit to one's tolerance.. whenever i reach the limit i wont care bout the consequences .. so sometimes wad u mean by me trying to whisper but speaks loudly is actually on purpose?? i noe im being mean but im alr right at the top if i still dun like try to go down a few steps i can jus fall down the cliff , u understand? AND rather than saying u r disappointed with us , y dun u say it is vice versa? and the clique i say is not DAT kind of clique u mean ..my clique is jus grp of frwens and i say clique coz clique is only one wrd but GRP OF FRWENS is 3 long wrds?? yih fang they all oso say clique but wad they mean is jus grp of frwens.. after dis i tink i will watch my wrds and be rest assured i will remember 4ever and ever GRP OF FRWENS not clique..

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